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if being lonely was easy

maybe bugs wouldn’t make girls so queasy.

if it was nice to be on your own

maybe guys wouldn’t love every sport where a ball is thrown.

but thankfully it’s not

so we learn to appreciate what we’ve got.

all alone

you don’t really need you’re phone.

seeing things you missed before

when your not waiting for the knock at the door.

by yourself you can be whoever you want to be…

it just isn’t easy being lonely.

in him i put my trust

in me he thrust.

him i forgave,

me he sent to my grave.

gave him all the love i had,

gave me nothing but stares so mad.

i said goodbye,

he didn’t even try.

here i cry

looking back at his every lie.

why am i surprised?

behind his soft words he was disguised.

she’s far prettier than me, so good for him,

maybe she’ll survive his next random whim.

~@$4!3y~

when all the world is caving in,

your hope smashed, no way to win,

your friends are gone,

your humor and love out on the lawn.

where do you go,

when the answer is always no?

the rain smashing against your skin,

sad, desperate pain no longer within.

no way out, nobody else in,

you’re on your own, going back to where you’ve been.

nothing but a mistake,

when from this nightmare of a life will you awake?

~@$4!3y~

open your mind,

your not always right

treating me like i’m blind,

like iv lost sight.

i know how to act

yeah my answers aren’t always exact,

but i do my best so get off my back.

my morals and judgment you attack,

i’m not your pet,

just tryin to get away, flying free jet.

making me feel worse than i already do,

please go away, just shew.

going alone,

never gonna be your clone.

so long “friend”,

we’ve finally met our end.

how do i go prepare for tomorrow,

when even today was not mine?

the hours i had to borrow,

my balancing act on a time-line.

how do i smile,

when sadness lies on me in a heaping pile?

waiting for nothing to come around the bend,

looking forward to something that’s just pretend.

when i’ve done one chore,

there’s always one more…

the hours sneak past,

leaving me nothing but second to last.

why go through today,

when everything is always just okay?

when it feels like i’m drowning in sorrow,

why should i be here tomorrow?

~@$4!3y~

Today’s issue seems to be a “must”

into young minds the idea is thrust.

We can’t even see,

the way it’s supposed to be,

because it tends to feel so “right”

the greedy sparkle in our eyes bright.

Pleasure is what is sought after, 

Selflessness hung on our moral rafter.

There is no guilt,

only “Love” on blind passion built.

But when today was yesterday’s tomorrow,

the only passion left is of sorrow.

For the need has lost its spark,

each touch left its scaring mark.

Then we hold no emotion,

smothering ourselves in fake lotion,

soon our unguilty lust,

becomes a deadly trap of “must”.

~@$4!3y~

her face hits the stone

terror shakes her every bone

she can’t, can’t be alone.

the letter in her hand,

holding his gold wedding band,

drenched in tears

words on a page holding her deepest fears.

she screams cause her sobbing isn’t enough

nobody said love would be this tough.

what? is this letter supposed to amend?

is she just to go on and pretend

that one day he’ll walk around the bend?

unanswered questions left in her head

all those promises he had said.

he’s such a liar!

said he’d be there through wind and fire…

but it’s not his fault,

it’s those who sent them on the assault.

those good for nothing, selfish men!

didn’t they know he had a family who said amen

before every meal as they prayed for him

how could they send him out on a whim?

but, they were just obeying orders…

it’s those terrorists on the borders!

looking, just waiting to take out their hate,

he was the perfect bate.

but they have families too,

trying to protect from evil running askew.

so then who is to blame?

is it her for letting him go?

is it his father for making him feel shame

and wanting to be in his footsteps to grow?

as she holds his folded flag

and his last letters in his military bag,

as the last shots sound

her answer is found.

the answer he would have wanted her to see,

he fought so she and the baby could be free.

he wouldn’t want her to blame or hate.

respect what he did for her and even those behind the jail gate.

he was brave and strong, now it’s her turn

to carry on his brave acts and silent return.

to pick up his flag and hold his baby’s hand

for united we stand.

~@$4!3y~

~@$4!3y~

i love you far to much to let you go.

without you my heart is -70 below,

frozen with fear.

i need you close dear.

stay by my side,

i’ll be the one in whom you can confide.

you will always be the one that i adore,

i love you now and forever more.

~@$4!3y~

i can’t be strong i feel so helpless

out of everything i do i make a mess.

a couple smiles a couple tears

i leave a trail of heartbroken fears.

everything i do is wrong

kinda like a country love song,

where all the girl can do is break men

then count to ten,

waiting for the next one to come around the bend.

all those messages that i send

come back to bight me in the end.

all the i love you’s

all the “sweet dreams” and “you too”s

what was the point?

the moment when

i realize i’m not supposed to be with them right then.

moral of this story

is that love is just down right gory.

messing with the mind while tearing out the heart,

shooting forever down with a fiery dart.

feeling like i have nothing left to give,

i don’t deserve their love so massive.

he took what was precious and special,

leaving me hurt and bashful.

do i love them, or am i afraid of being alone?

each time i fall in love, just digging my own gravestone.

here i go, breaking hearts of men,

lock up my heart before i do it again.

~@$4!3y~